The Web of Life

Before we dive in, you should know… I’m writing this blog as a reminder to all of you, how dreams can change our lives. It is a reminder to myself of why I’m here, doing this work and a call to action to every soul on this planet to begin dreaming a new world. One full of confidence, possibility, magic, humility and most of all…love.

So without further ado…here we go.

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My first lucid dream challenged everything I knew up until then to be true about myself and the Universe.

I was in school for year-long certification to become a Professional Dreamworker and up until that point, I had never experienced what I would fully call, a lucid dream. Through the combination of my own personal Transpersonal and Dream Therapy alongside my schooling and training with Grandmother Flordemayo, I had begun to have profoundly numinous experiences, and experiences wherein I became semi-conscious — but never fully, embodied lucid. My nightmares had eased and I was becoming more and more connected to my dreams and where they were asking me to go.

Our training had begun to dive deeper into lucid dreaming — why it happens, how to work towards it, and why it can be one of the most profound ways to rewire our brains, nervous systems and ultimately, change our lives.

From a Toltec and Tibetan Dream Yoga perspective I was learning about how to Toltecs view dreaming as learning to die which also correlates into the concept of Right Bardo in Tibetan Dream Yoga. Essentially, the more healed we become, the more we begin to have access to these lucid states in dreams which connect us to our soul. They help us to understand that our essence, our energy, our soul, can never die. More on this later though. Let’s get into my dream.

In the dream, I enter a vast desert at sunset. A clumsy, sideways teeming ticket booth lie at the entrance to a enormous and all encompassing spiderweb that reaches in all directions — into what feels like infinity.

I intuitively understand the assignment ahead of me walking up to the grumpy and disillusioned man inside. “So, if I go in there, can I get over that thing?” I ask. “If you can, you would be one of the few who’s ever made it” he responds with a low guttural laugh and roll of his eyes. Nodding, I proceed forward into the web that now lie directly ahead of me.

The dry, yet damp desert at dusk sings its most profound colors above my head. It is that time before the sun sets wherein the whole sky becomes bejeweled with rich purples, lavenders, magentas and goldenrods. I gaze above me in awe and disbelief that I am AWAKE in my dream (Not just a little bit either. Fully and completely, lucid. As if I was me writing this dream right now, with my body fast asleep while my consciousness explores this new realm).

As I get closer, I begin to see the people and families upon the web, teeming with life in the varying areas in which they stopped themselves somewhere along the web. It is breathtaking, terrifying and unbelievable all at once. I am seeing the web of life.

As I step up to the closest spot I can, I reach out for the surprisingly thick, clear, sticky ropes of the web and place them between my palms. Suddenly, a visceral fear moves through me. I look up into the entire universe and see the web disappear into its enormity. “How the fuck am I going to get over this?” I ask myself softly. Full of fear and doubt, I start to climb. The ropes are much tougher than I expected. And as I begin to get higher and higher I notice the people alongside, above and all around me. Families sitting down to dinner, kids playing baseball, groups of friends out at bars. My hands become tired. I glance below me and see the ground is much farther away than when I began. And I begin to get scared. I know I’m in a dream — and you can’t fall to your death in a dream? Right? RIGHT?! I doubt it all and then remember my teaching on lucid dreams from the day before in my waking life. I hear my teacher’s words “when you’re faced with a problem in a lucid dream, remember to think bigger than the situation. Meet your limiting beliefs with creativity and love and see what happens.” Remembering this, I gazed at my hands (hands are a BIG part of lucid dreaming but more on this later) as I started to climb and felt myself become tired, hands stinging, threatening to slip and fall to the Earth below.

Looking down, I’d barely moved. All around me on the web were people at whatever place they had deemed themselves and their lives “stuck”. Wherever they’d reached what they believed was their limit in this life. They seemed content, laughing and going on about their life upon the web.

Yet, for me, I knew this was a test. Sure, I could remain where I was, but why choose to limit? As if the dream was asking, “Where did I see myself in this landscape?”

In lucid dreams, we meet our limiting beliefs face to face. How we choose to engage and perhaps, move past them is how we *literally* grow and rewire our brains in our sleep. I knew this in the dream and so I challenged myself to believe I could fly (after a few other ridiculous other ideas 🤣).

The first time I started to lift off the web, I panicked and almost dropped. But after a few more trusted attempts and kind words to myself, I did it. I flew. Up and over the web, past high profile people I famously knew in the waking world. Up and over and out of the web.

What happened next can only be described as sacred. I flew through the most beautiful landscapes and felt in my cells how I was interconnected to everything. Felt nature as it felt me. Realized in a moment what I was. I was energy, a soul, connected to everything all at once.

Tears burst from my eyes and in that moment I was no longer afraid of death. No longer concerned with what I was supposed to be or do. I felt in every aspect of my being, an acceptance and love I could never put into words.

This is why I do what I do. This is why I know dreams can save us - because they have the capacity to remind us, as many times necessary, of the fact that we are infinite magical beings who can never truly cease to exist.

And this life?

It is just a blink. A beautiful, embodied journey that we get to have to experience what it means to be human.

Holy shit. What a gift.